12/21/24

Well, todays my birthday. Im 22 years old 

I didn't sleep at all last night  I maybe got 3 hours in this morning. Didn't get to dress up or do fun make at all, but my mom took me out for lunch and to visit the new Daiso in my hometown. She got me lots of treats and goodies!

I don't need many home items, so I usually scour Dasio for new Piano merch and stickers--of which I found both! I also got these little hair ties because I wanna do these little braids (copying Ray hehehe)

Also I found this picture--SOMEONE PLS TELL ME HER NAME! I've tried reverse searching but every image I find that looks like her has no source  I loved the lip color and I found a really similar one at Daiso! So cyute 

Joined the Daily Gyaru collective! I also tried copying a blog spot post over to dreamwidth and it seems too look okay! I'll be bringing over posts from here to that website every so often 

However, my first post got a comment from a stranger rating my chest out of 10 

Happy birthday to me I guess 

Whatever!!!! Heres the rest of my Daiso gets and a cute light I got from target.

12/20/24

Feeling emotional today 

Took forever today to get all dressed up with my NEW BRAND I've always wanted these Jeffery Campbell spiked litas and I got them for like 35 BUCKS on Ebay  I paired them with this Lip Service asymmetrical pencil skirt and my backless brown crop sweater from I think Target???

I'm wearing my rose bracelet and owl necklace from my fav thrift store; early 2010's staples I've always wanted to have. I'm all dolled up with pretty hair like my mom's, gal make, and retro clothes...and I just finally feel like I am the woman I always imagined I'd be as a little girl 

All of this happening while I'm driving to the café downtown in the town I grew up in--the café being where this ice cream shop/diner I loved as a kid us
ed to be--and all my favorite pop music from childhood starts playing  Tongue Tied, Everybody Talks, Midnight City ...meanwhile the most beautiful winter sunset lights up the logging hills of my hometown, yet keeps the streets dark enough for the Christmas lights on every streetlamp and old buildings to shine...When I tell you I almost cried...

Then I step out of my car and get SNORTED AT by these two girls. LMAO. I loved it.

Sitting in the cafe right now, thinking of the how many birthdays I had here when this place used to be that old diner. My birthday is tomorrow, and I'm turning 22. Where do the freaking years go?? Not that I want to go back; childhood was beautiful and also horrible. I had little responsibility, little awareness of the world, and my Dad...but I also was navigating a difficult girlhood with one of the most miserable mental illnesses I would never wish upon my worst enemy, OCD 

Thankful and proud of myself tonight 

Forgot to take pics of my outfit bc im silly  heres my make and hair and a pic of the beautiful sky 

                

12/11/24

                                   

Currently sitting alone getting Thai food :( i dont mind eating by myself, i usually just bring my headphones and go tablet baby mode LMAO, but after hanging out so much with my friends and roommates and partner, it feels lonelier

But thats okay! I enjoy my own company 

I spent way too long doing my everything shower and makeup, plus i woke up at 12, so i didnt leave my house until 4:30...my sleep schedule is all messed up after last weeks crunch and finals week 

                                     

Going to a jfashion meet scheduled by the lovely kohi this saturday!! Im so excited to see everyone again. Givin ray a ride again cus im the cutest uber and we're probs gonna gossip all the way thereCANT WAIT !! theres a gift exchange, but i didnt sign up SORRY GUYSbut im still excited to see everyone else open their gifts!! 

I bought some brand from Jp Mercari--thank you ray for the help  i cant wait to show them off! I only got 4 things, but thats what I can afford right now  So excited to get my first brand mini haul

I feel like my make is getting more polished, and im having so much more fun putting my co*des together. Heres some pics of a co*de i wore going out with Ray !