HAIR - bow from Daiso
TOP - ???, thrifted from Value Village
SHOE - Jeffery Campbell
It's the ALT MIVE style folder 1. Raysama lent it to me since it doesn't work with their carrier. Seems to be working fine with Verizon so far for me!! There's a few quirks I'm working out which I will document for anyone interested
My boom right now is pink pink pink. I mean, not that it isn't always pink...
Example Boom:
I'm back
Lowkey identity crisis because of school rocked me. I hardly dressed up or wore makeup...but now I am back doing gal style more frequently
It was a hard time and I am sliding very gently back into style. I'm very casually putting codes together, not using much reference. This is a similar technique I do in my art, where I "test" my understanding of a subject by drawing from memory and habit, rather than reference, to see if I have built up good drawing habits.
Maybe this is not so good...but I have caught a very serious case of the "fuck-its".
Agonizing over how I don't look exactly like a Japanese gal, or a very skilled gaijin, brought me down a dark route. It was no longer about the makeup or the outfit, it was the body and the face, the features that I cannot change. This made me angry, and I felt horrible that that anger was starting to get directed at others who I wished to look like.
So I want to return to the unapologetic joy that is inherently personal about gal in this more fragile state.
Feeling absolutely rotten lately.
I'm past my breaking point with school, and one project is to blame. I feel trapped and overwhelmed at the prospect of continuing to work on it...but I don't have much of a choice.
As such, I have no motivation to coordinate fun outfits or do bold makeup. Gal was always my armor to shield me from the awful world around me, but most of the light inside me has been sucked out for the moment.
I'll try to dress up pretty, because it really does make me feel better, but I'm also frustrated with my body and its limitations when it comes to Japanese fashion.
I tried on lots of pretty tops the other day, and almost cried in the dressing room; nothing buttons, nothing fits, nothing flatters. All I want to do lately is hide away in big sweaters and boxy pants.
I'm extremely busy with work and school, so all of my chores have fallen to the wayside. My room is a dump, most of my clothes are dirty, I'm not cooking for myself...its all I can do right now is take care of me and look after my own best interests, even if that means being easy on myself.
I cannot wait for Fall. Summer has been lovely this year, but I'm ready for rain and fog and beautiful trees. I even had a PSL the other day, and I don't even like them very much...
This Fall, a huge boom of mine is neutrals and fairly minimal accessories (minimal for GAL). Between school, work, commuting, co-running a club, Prysmique, and chores around the house...I'm going to be running around like a headless chicken; I'd rather not do so while worrying about all my little shinies falling off and sweating in all my layers.
As for hair, the long personal debate between dyeing or bleaching has been resolved...for now. Sorry, Ray, but I'm sticking to my natural hair for a while!
I'm really loving elegant and sexy co*des with a focus on silhouettes including short skirts/shorts/coats/dresses, tall boots, coats/sweaters, and longer relatively flat (again flat FOR GAL) hair with waves or curls. These gal look so mature and stylish!
