I'm back
Lowkey identity crisis because of school rocked me. I hardly dressed up or wore makeup...but now I am back doing gal style more frequently
It was a hard time and I am sliding very gently back into style. I'm very casually putting codes together, not using much reference. This is a similar technique I do in my art, where I "test" my understanding of a subject by drawing from memory and habit, rather than reference, to see if I have built up good drawing habits.
Maybe this is not so good...but I have caught a very serious case of the "fuck-its".
Agonizing over how I don't look exactly like a Japanese gal, or a very skilled gaijin, brought me down a dark route. It was no longer about the makeup or the outfit, it was the body and the face, the features that I cannot change. This made me angry, and I felt horrible that that anger was starting to get directed at others who I wished to look like.
So I want to return to the unapologetic joy that is inherently personal about gal in this more fragile state.
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